God's child

2012-01-28T01:41:00.004+08:00

“两个人不一定要无时无刻都在一起；不需要甜言蜜语；只需要相信而已。”

简简单单的爱，就已经是完美的了。
我认为全世界都可以不明白你，但是我不可以。

无论是在直射友情还是爱情，我认为道理是一样的。情人可以伴你度过一生，友人也可以。过度刻意的划分只会是在鸡蛋里挑骨头。世界上的所有事物都不是二元对立的。在所有的关系上，我们只要相信彼此的真诚，对你所信任的坦诚。我真的很感谢耶稣，因为我有那么多爱我的人，和我所爱的人。即使面对不顺心的事，我知道耶稣爱我的真理是不改变的。他让我重新的爱身边的每一个人。

2012-01-11T22:20:00.006+08:00

during church camp, pastor called all campers to do a test on our individual's language of love. And, it turned out that my love language was QUALITY TIME. And from then on, i realised that my love language has its boons and banes. because of my primary love language being quality time, i could clique with alot of people and love them the same way. I guessed its because most girls have this as their primary love language. but i also understand that there's always an opportunity cost to everything that we do. Because of the the scarce resources, its not possible for all of us to have enough time to spend with our loved ones. Hence, i faced a huge barrier. i began to "demand" for more time out of people around me. Slowly i realised that its wrong. and it made me really upset. because I know not everyone has the same love language as me. so i shouldnt have that expectation that i should receive quality time from them.

hence, God reminded me about what is love. TRUE LOVE.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. ⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease

Love shouldnt be possessive. Hence, I thank God for teaching me all these and making my day so wonderful today. less than an hour of time spent tgt and im already contented :)

2011-12-28T18:47:00.003+08:00

i went to visit a friend today. and she told me that she will celebrate Christmas with her Buddhist religious class people. LOL. 我好想问她哦，“what do you celebrate about Christmas?" I think she really dont know the meaning of Christmas.

2011-12-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

i thank God because i just had my most meaningful Christmas spent.

firstly, after praying and waiting for 5 years, my mum finally accepted Christ. Its really a day that i have been waiting for. and I truly experienced what does it mean by leaving everything to the Holy Spirit. Every Soul saved is so precious. Because its only when the Holy Spirit touch them, then they can receive such a gift. I think I should have a greater faith. Perhaps, my whole family would hav been saved by now. But now, I really have to pray. Pray for the holy spirit to continue pouring into my mum's life and let the little seed grow.

secondly, i finally took the courage to share the Gospel to my family member -- my nephew. I really have the very strong feeling that I should use the Christmas as a chance to share gospel to him. what's a party without the word of God? what's a party and celebration without sharing the News about the Lord? thank God for all the disputes about Christmas' origin lately. Without it, I wouldnt have so much to share about what is the true meaning behind why are we celebrating it. I know its not the Lord's bday, but its the reason of why He was born that is worthy of our celebration. I truly agree to one of my sister's comment: if u dont celebrate His birth on Christmas, then when will u do it?

I truly believe, in all the things we need, we need to know our purpose. Not to be factual, but to please the Lord.

Lastly, I thank God for making all these so meaningful and letting me spend the year with the Special One. =) and not forgetting my lovely ones. <3 The true meaning comes when all of us work for the Lord with all our hearts.

2011-11-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

如果人与人之间的感情是二元对立的话，我也许就不会那么难过了。

我实在不明白：你从来都不让我有机会解释或明白你的立场就一意孤行的将我推开，这就是爱吗？

I really love you. Love our memories. And everything we did together.

2011-11-21T14:02:00.003+08:00

after a month of hectic preparation, arguments and decision making, my dearest jiemei finally had her wedding. through this whole experience, it really taught me about the love of christ.

without love from Christ, i think we will never be able to endure through all the painstaking process. everything was so last minute. but thank God, i know He's with us. Thinking back, I think i learnt alot too. I know what i want in my life. I know how i want my wedding to be like. I know what kind of man I would not want. And I know what kind of marriage I would want to have too.

Its really through the love of Christ, we can forgive each other and giving each other our best. everyone is bound to make mistakes. and none of the mistakes is as severe as our sin infront of Him. Hence, we should all learn to be gracious to one another. Friends, Family and Partners.

And I believe, no man can just live on without any friends. Even if one is attached, support from friends are as important too. 有了爱情，友情仍存在。

2011-06-29T23:24:00.001+08:00

Deep down, I know things are different now. But no matter what is the outcome, I wan to serve my Lord, my King with all my life. Because He's more important than anything.

2011-06-20T02:35:00.001+08:00

why do people cry? 1) because they did something wrong 2) because they were wronged 3) they felt something wrong.

so, why do i feel like crying?

2011-05-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

5年前的我，如果听到这个消息，我一定会马上流眼泪，嚎啕大哭。不断的问“为什么？”。 I know I am different now. I am worried. But I can only pray for God to have mercy on my family. I feel the pain. Painful because my aunty donno who is Jesus. My heart cries out, because I don't know how my cousin is going to face all these ALONE. I know she needs God. But how? How do I introduce Him to her?

whenever we start to self-pity, we should think about the most pitiful people around us. At least we know we have Jesus to walk with us. What about those who dont have?

2011-05-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

if i tell you my honest answer, will you listen? can you take the truth?

2011-05-09T20:06:00.002+08:00

耶和华是我的亮光，耶和华是我的拯救

耶和华是我生命的保障，我还惧谁呢？

有一件事，我曾寻求。我仍要寻求。

就是一生一世住在耶和华的殿中。瞻仰祂荣美。

I WANT TO RUN WITH YOU, ALL MY LIFE. JUST FOR YOU.

2011-05-06T22:43:00.001+08:00

i had a run on my first day of exam. cool. :)

2011-05-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

I THINK I REALLY NEED THE MOTIVATION: BEGIN WITH THE END IN MIND

things to do after exams:

Dim Sum buffet
learn sewing
go for bass lesson
picnics
sleepovers
getaway(or runaway) trips
cruise with family
wedding preparation for my beloved cousin
watch finish 同伊
bible studies!

Exams please leave me ASAP! i am feeling so stressed now that i cant focus :(

2011-04-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

With my own eyes, I saw how many people came forward to drink from the Lord's well in Medan, in Surabaya. I once again, witness how people in Jakarta desired for the Lord. Why arent these happening in Singapore?

it saddens me. How much singaporeans are packed and tied down by our own desires, our own commitments, our own emotions, rejecting Christ. Even if we have accepted Him, how have our lives really changed? Are we still concerned only about our own welfare? what about the welfare of the unsaved? have we tried our best to touch their lives with the help of the Spirit? or are we only focusing on our own problems and issues?

I myself will also fall at times. But I really want to stand for Him. committing my all to Him. I hope all of us will experience breakthroughs in our lives, for our Lord Jesus Christ.

2011-04-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

"What will you do if today is the last day you have on Earth?"

I chance upon a friend's blog today and saw what she posted. it sets me thinking. Den the word " Carpe Diem (Seize the Day)" came to my mind. It was fr a movie that my literature tcher showed us when i was in sec 3. cool thing.

If i have the courage, i think will tell you everything that's in my mind. really.

2011-03-24T01:06:00.002+08:00

lesson learnt: my best friend of my life is JESUS. but nevertheless, I thank God and treasure every relationship He put in my life.

世事难料。for this moment, we can be super duper good friends, but we cant predict the future. Im not trying to be emo. But this is what I really learn. we can have alot of fun and laughters, but we never know when we will quarrel too. what if we dont want to solve the dispute? or after solving, we cant return to the past? so, there isnt any good friends forever.

But, trust me my friends, I love all of you. No matter what happened, or haven happen, you are all wonderful friends that God put in my life. Really. Sincerely. According to my character, I wont be angry with anyone for long too. Because I love friendships and i treasure everyone. and, I know in every relationship, God have different lessons for me. :) i am going to be stronger!

May God bless me with even opportunities to build strong relationships with all the friends that I have.

2011-01-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

BATCH OUTING!(this post is dedicated to all my batch mates out there)

although we had only the strength of 12 ppl present at the outing, but its still a fun one! (: we did lots of updates and created lots of jokes (and noise).. hahaha. though im tired, but i think its awesome.

i will never forget those days where we practiced hard for SYF, scolding the school and cry at the same time when we were chased out of our bandroom, being punished in the field, flipped over the wall tgt within time limit, rotting in different corners of the bandroom, eating long john silver, gathering at seoul garden,etc etc... wow!

YOU GUYS ARE REALLY TAKE UP THE MAIN BULK OF MY SEC SCH MEMORIES! I REALLY HOPE WE CAN HAVE MORE MEET UPS AND OUR BAND-SHIP WILL ALWAYS REMAIN! (:

p.s. i will look forward to attending all your weddings! (:

2011-01-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

因為有你我揮別過去	Because of you I was born again
因為有你生命能延續	Because of you I'm ransomed by your grace
因為有你我不再有恐懼	Because of you my heart has found a home
心能夠得安息	A refuge for my soul
A2
因為有你罪已得潔淨	Because of you sins are washed away
因為有你恩典豐沛如雨	Because of you heaven knows my name
因為有你生命有新旋律	Because of you I can live again
你已釋放我心	You've broken every chain
A3
因為有你軟弱的能剛強	Because of you the weak say I am strong
因為有你破碎的能歌唱	Because of you the broken have a song
因為有你心中充滿盼望	Because of you there is no need to fear
我能活出夢想	Hope steadfast ever sure
B
無盡的愛毫無保留	Unfailing love so unreseverd
主你寶血為我而流	You gave yourself on Calvery
如今我能得著自由	And now I stand forever free
因耶穌拯救我	My Savior rescued me
C
天堂門今敞開	Now heaven be open
神大能降下來	Our God is unshaken
神百姓近前來宣揚主愛	We worship Christ risen high above
天堂門今敞開	Now heaven be open
神百姓來敬拜	All kingdoms all nations
全能神已同在	Declare that you are God

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Eversince the start of the year, many things have happened. there were moments of jubilant, times when i got overwhelmed by my own emotions, or lost sight of what i should be doing. But I thank God, after all that has been said and done, I know, I am getting better at this. Though there are things unsolved, challenges that are coming ahead, but I know, Because of God, I am able to be strong again. I am able to stand firm and finish the walk. After speaking to my dearest mentor, I learnt smt. "When we are caught up with challenges, its our choice to face it or to walk away. But without facing it, we can never gain victory."

I hope I can be like her. so strong and achieve all the remarkable things for His glory. I pray, pray that I can be a good mentor, pray that I can be a good servant, pray that I can be a good student, pray that i can be a good child (at home and in His Kingdom). Because of Him.

I guess, its nt the time to think about myself. But putting Him infront of all my thoughts.

Thank you brothers and sisters. I really enjoyed these 2 weeks. (:

2011-01-03T20:07:00.004+08:00

turning your ear to wisdom

and applying your heart to understanding—

^{indeed, if you call out for insight}

and cry aloud for understanding,

^{and if you look for it as for silver}

and search for it as for hidden treasure,

(Proverbs 2:2-4 NIV)

2011. wow! im turning 21! more responsibilities, more targets, more resolutions. I am looking forward to more things happening too! (:

anw, I enjoyed all that has happened in the past 2 weeks. meeting new people, catching up with old friends, dining with my dearest nephew and chilling with my brothers and sisters. COOL! :)

2010-12-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

Thank God for the trip. Thank God for giving me all the opportunities to grow. But i know someting is wrong. However, I just cant phrase them in words. or express them verbally.

But I'm sure, you will understand me.

My comfort in my suffering is this:

Your promise preserves my life.

(Psalms 119:50)

2010-12-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

FIVE LOAVES AND TWO FISHES -- CORRINNE MAY

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school

He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening to the stories of one man

He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night

Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had

He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus

The kindness in His smile

And the boy cried out

With the trust of a child

he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and my inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small

And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands

And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have

Oh Lord, you can work miracles

All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and my inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

I hope it's not too small

I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes

Do with it as you will

I surrender

Take my fears and my inhibitions

All my burdens, my ambitions

You can use it all

No gift is too small

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Just when my emotions and everything starts to tie me up, this song reminded me so much of not how much I give, but its giving my all, and Jesus knows it all. He will use it too. I believe, all that I am doing now is not for nothing. Its not a waste of time. Because He sees it all. Even the smallest and the tiniest thing that I do, as long as I do it for Him, and not for people, He will be smiling at me back up there. Thank you Jesus.

Not that I do not want to care about you, but I think not saying anything is better than saying unnecessary comments. Just making my presence felt is not what I should be doing, I just hope that you now that I do really care for you.

2010-12-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

i was observing my mum when she prepared dinner tonight. den realised how good corningware sets are. (:

in case anyone do not know how it looks like..

it can cook so many delicious dishes and most importantly, its lasting! haha so i said to my mum, "Ma, I like Corningware leh. Can you get me one ask my jia4 zhuang1

when i get married next time?"

den my mum answered,

"Sure."

den i added,

"i want plates and dining set from Corelle too."

she said,

"ask your sis prepare for you lo. Since, my corningware comes from your aunt."

haha. i enjoy toking to my mum, really. forever entertaining me. LOL. anw, im distracted from my studies. cant get anything into my head now. ):

oh. i tink i am starting to feel the "wedding atmosphere" after reading my cousin's blog and attending the dinner on sunday by my brother and sister-in-christ. (: i hope i can go thru what they are going through soon! hahaha. of cos, by the natural way! hahaha. i cant wait for the day i graduate, go and work, get married and have my own family! hahahah. i tink i have the rights to think abt this since i am moving on to my next phase of life liao.! haha. THE BIG TWENTY ONE! hahaha! im sure many of my sisters-in-christ will agree to this! hahaha! so exciting! hahaha.

2010-11-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

*sigh.

我真的很努力了。但是，我还是不可以。不可以考得像样一点。虽然我知道成绩不是最重要的。但是，还是很沮丧。I guess, this is the sem that i have ever studied so hard. this is the only sem that I have ever tried to push away certain things to make time out for studies. this is the only sem that I would prepare early. But why? ): 我不能说我已经对成绩麻木了，否则我也不会那么难过。

I guess, now, its again going back to my Father. Depending on Him for strength and wisdom. because I am TOTALLY incapable. I really hope all these will end soon. So that I can pursue what I really like. Get to see my babies and little children everyday. ):

2010-10-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,

"plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.

in the midst of all my project and quizes, i tink i really have to thank God. Because i am not having 2 or 3 quizes in a week. but spread over 3 weeks. hmm, i guess with even more strength from the Lord, I was able to accomplish more things this sem than before. (:

looking at how my cousin got vexed up because of schoolwork, I thank God for putting even greater faith and joy in my heart. I believe, if i continue to work hard and do my revisions, I can get better grades than this! (: haha. i tink i was never this hardworking ever since i attended uni. hahaha. i learn to turn down outings, or placing my studies before other activities. because I really want to glorify God with my grades. (:im not going to be the bottom few but im going to make it!! yes! (: i tink with better time management, i can do more things! (: i can go for suppers(at ease) or late night outings. hahaha. THANK YOU JESUS!

2010-10-11T16:03:00.002+08:00

老师说：

“当人们越思考什么是真理时，所研发出的理论只是会越来越靠近真理，但不是真理！”

wow! i tink this is so applicable to Christianity. Many people have been trying to find proves and theories about God. and think that that's the truth. But what did God say? "我就是道路、真理、生命". no one can out beat Him. No one can be better of without God in their lives. that's what i believe. and will always believe.

anw, cheesecake making session was good! (: haha. enjoyed the whole process and learning to make so many flavs! haha. zhenling says i am qualified to be Ahabah Pistis Cheesecake chef! LOL! but i tink credits shld go to many others who did it with me. :) AIQING JIE, JIAHUI4, SHOUFU, SHUILIN, WEICONG, ENHUI, JIAHUI2, LIYAO, ZHIJIN, ZHIHAO, AH GU, ETC ETC! and XUEYING! hahaha! yes! we are a team. cheese making, biscuit crushing team! yipee! 迈向更多个1000元！（：

AND! THANK GOD FOR BRINGING YUJIE BACK SAFELY! i miss my this wonderful sister v v much! hahaha.!

2010-10-09T01:51:00.002+08:00

For my thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts..." (Isaiah 55:8-9)

很奇妙的。当我们凭着信心去做事的时候，神就会行更奇妙的大事！

when we decide to make cheesecakes as our fundraising revenue, we only estimate abt 150 or 200 cakes to be sold? know what?~! currently, our orders have hit 95! NINETY FIVE! amazing right? i cant believe it myself too! Praise the Lord for His Provision. Praise the Lord because people are pleased with our products. Praise the Lord because of all whom have devoted their time in this project. im really glad to be part of the team! (:

2010-09-30T18:27:00.002+08:00

如果你的两个孩子都有听觉障碍，你的心情会是什么？你会怎么应对呢？

我刚才就看见了一对双胞胎。远看，她们是那么的天真可爱。但仔细察看，我发现她们都背着一个小包包。然后，有一条电线从包包里衔接到她们的耳朵。这时我才发现原来她们有听觉障碍。我心里就开始很难过。what will i feel if i am the mother of this 2 kids?

actually, they suffered physical impairment. but what if we suffer spiritual impairment? I suddenly realised how hurting to our Father it is. when we were born, we were suppose to be able to hear our Father. but we became deaf to Him because of our sins.

Dear God, please forgive us of our sins. Please forgive us because we have always been wanting to walk on our own way. Father, please forgive us. Lord let us hear your voice again. Let us come before you like how Adam and Eve used to do. Lord, you are our Shepherd. We are your sheep. Please let us hear your voice, so that we know what path we are suppose to walk. All these I pray in Jesus' name, Amen.

2010-09-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

ah. i tink i did something wrong to my blogskin. i deleted the archive thing tgt with my faulty tagboard. -.- i tink i will need to change the skin soon. LOL.

2010-09-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

虽然我的这个学期很辛苦（是有最多必考科的一次），也有很多课外的活动（不是CCA！），但是我知道我一定可以胜过一切！因为我的神是伟大的！

hmm. Jus read miss NG's blog, and i realised, i really have to thank God for bringing me through my most difficult times, JUNIOR COLLEGE!. haha. if not for me being in MJC, i wont be able to understand how to face and handle stress. I dont want to choose the path of escaping like before. trying to quit school or trying to find excuses. i want to learn. learn the path of faith. i believe, everyone will get their trial of managing stress. its either u get managed by stress, and surrender. or u manage it and become a winner (: jia you everyone who are facing stress and hiccups in life! because my God is faithful, He will definitely bring you through!

*haha. but i have to admit, this sem i did feel that stress much more than the past. hahaha. until i start to plan my schedule every week! LOL. may God bless me!!

ahabah pistis

2010-09-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

AHABAH PISTIS!

ITS NOT HAPPENING IN DECEMBER. BUT NOW.

ALL SHALL EXPERIENCE HIS GOODNESS. ALL SHALL SEE HIS WORKS AND PRAISE HIS NAME!

know what? my bestie, yujie, read the prev post of mine. without me mentioning the name of my fren, she alr knew who i was refering to! ain't God awesome? He put the same 感动in both of us. letting us have the same passion and vision. My God is an awesome God! just like what zhenling jie says, we are not going to experience all these only in Surabaya. or after the trip. the work of Faith and Love will start now, as long as we desire and we ask for! Change in the heart and not just the mind! HALLELUJAH! im really excited now!!!!

2010-09-12T21:06:00.003+08:00

i think this is something that is really worth blogging about.. i have 2 testimonies to share for this week!

1) though my cousin attempted suicide last week and was sent to the hospital, but I thank God for the chance for me to share His words with her :) something which i never did before! Praise the Lord. Not only that, i prayed for her aloud too! its a really amazing thing. How God leads me and how He gave me the courage. And I strongly believe that its thru all the prayers, my cousin has been recovering well! Hallelujah.

2) i have always been praying to God about dreams. i wanted God to show me who i should pray for through dreams. (haha. cos i tink if dreaming without meaning are quite waste of time.! haha) and for most of the time, i cant rmb my dreams once i wake up! haha. so, today something amazing happened. I saw this friend in my dream and it was a scene where she was in my church. rededicating her life to God and thanking all of my church frens who helped her. so, i sent her a msg whn i was on my way to church because i thought that was a sign fr God. asking God for His protection over her and pouring His Love on her everyday.

at the later part of the day, she replied me. telling me that she actually met w alot of issues ytd night. and she thank me for the msg!

How timely can that be?! Praise the Lord!

I really hope that i can have more and more testimonies to share each week! haha.

because I AM CHOSEN TO BE WITNESS OF CHRIST! (:

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth. ( Acts 1:8)

2010-09-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

i seriously need to put my emotions aside and place God's plan in my sight!

Im sure everything will be well! cos we are not created to be sick or to suffer all our lives.

2010-08-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

I think.. i am not going to buy more things. or else, i will keep on keeping them until the cows come home! lol. packing my room, or simply my cupboards and drawers cn be a total chore to me! hahaha. after 1.5 hrs of struggle, my room is still messy. it was jus a bit better. hahaha. lol. and look, what i've found!

My first MP3 player. though its only 250MB, it cost me $160! lol.

My FIRST camera. bought it because i need it for my role as UIC in band. LOL. super lao pok camera. pictures shot by it will jus turn blur if i zoom. wahahhaha!

My ONE and ONLY discman. haha. because when it died on me, MP3 became popular, so, i din bother to get another one. :)

lol. this pencil pouch has a history of 13 yrs fr now! i made it when i was in primary 1. haha. i still rmb my pri 1 teacher chose me and another handful to learn the skill of cross stitch :)

hahaha! this is my organiser when i was in JC2. :) simply love it because i personalised it! hahaha. it was supposed to be an ugly planner given by watsons, but i sticked so many things until i felt so motivated to write in it.. hahaha

well. not only did i found all these, i also saw letters and gifts given by so many ppl. LOL. now, i am really tired.

and... school is starting.. :(

2010-08-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

hallelujah.! its so great to see that all are fervent for God once again! (: Glory to God! May these zealous hearts stay passionate till the day we see You again!

jus as joyce meyer says "our physical life is sustained by breathing, our spiritual life is also sustained by PRAYING!" so, we gonna PRAY PRAY PRAY, SING SING SING! (: yes!

i tink i got to start my book reading once again. wahahha. haven been reading since v long. hope can really finish 12 books in this yr! please encourage me to read if u see me slacking! hahaha.

anw, i have this gan dong. it will be good if we can have prayer gatherings with our peers so that we can maintain this spiritual fire that God has given us. or maybe send each other verses to encourage one another! agree?

2010-08-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

"ZINA" is a name that signifies or is derived from: "shining", "going back", "to shine", "the sky".

ZINA -- that's my name. though i haven been using it very often, but i am learning to. trying to. because i want to shine. jus as the meaning of my name states.

after attending the one and only 1040 Movie Screening in singapore, i was v touched. touched by how God is working. though i've watched it once at home(i've bought a copy of it), but it still speaks into my life. today, this movie actually reminded me of how i shld shine for Him, my Lord, my God. yes i wan to shine. and also, i am even more sure that God is going to use me in amazing ways which i wont be able to think of. since, i am studying chinese, i am also preparing myself that one day, i might be doing what patrick is doing (: haha. but deep down in my heart, i feel like gg to thailand, chiangmai. i do not understand why the list of nations that we need to quickly spread gospel to, doesnt have thailand, laos, cambodia, vietnam,brunei,etc SEA countries included. :( i really hope that i cn go into these countries and do missions :) maybe i shld start w visiting P'Jyap and going to villages like wat i did 3 yrs ago. :) and look for my fav, Chai Wat.

i really want to serve Him, all my days, all my life. because of His goodness. i am so proud to be His Daughter. thank God for calling me His Princess though i dont deserved to be one. But tt's how much He treasures me. my friends, He does see all of you as His Princes and Princesses too. i cant use words to tell you about how great He is, but i urge you to come and experience it with me. :)

"I put You infront of me, so everybody can see, My Love. This is my love. I know i'll be alright, as long as you are my guide, my Love. This is my love..."

2010-08-20T00:40:00.001+08:00

This is super cool! aww.! i feel like trying it out.! anw, 1040movie is super good! i tink everyone shld own one!

2010-08-19T17:02:00.002+08:00

as much as i wanted to love you, i realised that i have been using the wrong way. hurting you and venting my anger on you. im sorry. i tink the best way now is for me to not bother so much. i guess i have to close my eyes to whatever you are doing. or else, i will be forcing you again. ): i know you wont be reading these. but i jus want you to know, i really care for you. because you are my sister.

hello people. i need your prayers now. please help me. let me be filled with God's love and less of my own will. help me to pray for me and my sis to have a even better relationship than now. pray for my pride to be taken away so that i can use His way instead of mine. thanks! ):

2010-08-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

thank God for such a good trip. thank God for all that has happened. :) looking forward to more. SUURABAYA 2010 (:

anw, "Aftershock" is a really nice movie. but it saddens me to see how much people suffer when there's a disaster. makes me reflect on how i shld lead my life too.. hmm hmm...

2010-07-24T00:14:00.003+08:00

i was thinking about something,

what would my life be like if i am not a christian now?

ohwells. i really enjoy all that i am doing right now. if not for me being a christian, i doubt i can even tide thru the most difficult phase in my life, JUNIOR COLLEGE!. yes. its because i have God with me, i got support from my prev cell grp, my sister-in-christ (BRENDA) to bring me thru my tough times. and its because i am a Christian, all the difficult times seems easier to tide thru. really thank God for that.

if not for God, i wont be able to know so many ppl. wont be able to work in winchester, wont be able to be in uni (: thank you Jesus!

and its also because of all the blessings from God, i am able to fly to so many countries now. haha. hongkong. kunming. medan. (: yea!青春不留白！

anw, something bad jus happened at hm. pls keep my cousin in your prayers again.. thanks!

2010-07-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

just as how our words can influence others, our actions do too.we never know how much our little act of kindness or our love for God can touch other's lives. that's why, i always want to be in early childhood. for i could see that little influence on this little new life might just be a head start for him to be a good tool to His Kingdom.

Shine for Him for that's our calling.

Pray to Him as if we are breathing.

Live for Him because we came from Him.

2010-07-12T22:39:00.001+08:00

argh! seeing all the pics that my cousin post on her fb, I ALSO WANT GO EUROPE :(

hai. all the nice places and scenary! :(

2010-07-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

WOW! i am feeling so over the moon now! haha. (: let me share abt what's the happiest thing that happened over this week!

abt somewhr last week, jasmyn jie (my supervisor) told my fav boy's mum that i like her son v much. and the son, Alon, likes me too. so, the mum replied with "ok, next tym when we are busy, we can get her to babysit alon".

amazingly, Alon had a fever today. so the mum contacted jasmyn jie to ask for my contact! (: wow! this thing jus made my day lo! felt super happy and kept on waiting for her call. but she din call me. hmm yuan lai, my boss told her tt i wasnt free. after clarifying with her, den me n jasmyn jie realise that my boss was confusing her. AND, his mum din jus let the matter go, she called to clarify with me.! and she said that she trust me leh! Praise the Lord. Though i wasnt trained in dealing with infants, she had so much trust and faith in me. Glory to the Lord!! (:

yes, though i not babysitting my fav boy tmr, but his mum told me that if there's a need to keep him away fr the air-conditioned envt in sch, she will call me again!!! LOL. though abit cek ark to gloat over the baby's fever, but thank God for all these! HALLELUJAH!

2010-07-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

hmm some thoughts just flew past my head. haha. though i now have a christian name, but seems like i haven use it for more than 2 times? haha. i only rmb using it to make reservation for teoheng. hahahha. maybe i shld start using it? or maybe at the back of my mind, i jus felt tt it was a milestone to mark that i am leading a new life that God has given me? haha. who will carry a stone every where with them, 不是吗?

2010-07-07T21:20:00.003+08:00

Lea - Australian

Alon - Jew and Chinese

Jolan - French and Jap

Finn - European

Julia- Switzerland and Malay

aww.. i miss my babies. :'( as i was waiting for Gemima (my new 5-year-old) student, outside her school, i saw FINN. hai. makes me so sad. cos he doesnt recognise me alr. and i really miss them.! how i wish i can go back and work. or even visit them. :(

oh wells, though i am not working now, i feel that my life is so 充实. haha. meeting people for bible study, going for morning prayers, running errands here and there. haha. i enjoy what i am doing (: hope tt i can meet more people! (:

2010-06-29T11:27:00.002+08:00

my job is coming to an end le. have been given 1.5 days de off. cos got too little babies le. but anw, i think i am really going to pursue early childhood as my future career. of cos, it will be abt 10 yrs later. haha. i tink i am going to miss these cute little babies. (: May the Lord bless them in their growing years.

looking forward to the upcoming month. so exciting! hahaha. i tink i am gg to be overseas for abt 1 mth in total. haha. hongkong, kunming.. and maybe indonesia! cool!!!!!

2010-06-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

aww. today is a super 伤感day. it was so bad that whenever i mention abt it, tears will jus flow down my cheeks. 因为你一个人的决定，我们一家人的生活方式改变了。因为你一个人的决定，让2.5的人为你流泪。i really donno what to say. i really donno how to react. maybe i am jus being emotional. but whenever i recall about what he said, "I am going to miss your family, the three of you.",我就感到心酸阿！Perhaps, it was a mistake of how everything started. it was a mistake because it din started with God's love as the foundation..

2010-06-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

haha. it has been a month since i started working (cos my train concession ending today.. haha) (:.. haha. so happy!

i have to admit tt i was really drained out for the past 2 weeks. all my energy were sucked up by the babies that i have to face everyday. resulting in piling work load and becoming lazier. hai. i even start to ponder abt why Miss Sally and other preschool tchers can work in this line for so long. wont they get tired? wont they lose their passion because of all the routines? perhaps, i was v discouraged by the fact that the children are bullying me. seeing that i am new among the tchers, they refused to be fed by me, or letting me change their diapers.. so.. i started to not see any hope in the job.

however, THANK GOD for all that happened this week. as i stepped into the centre on monday, the children started to look at me. their focus was on me, no matter where i go. then i was puzzled. to my amaze, they actually recognised me! and they seemed to be waiting for me to reach e centre! (maybe cos got another newer tcher ard! hahaha) anw, slowly, more kids start to approach me. esp when i start to play the 切萝卜game. haha.. after 3 days, they still like it! and are still looking for me because i can do the 切萝卜.. and i realised that the motivation of teachers is the growth and development of students (: i guess, i wld pursue this line in the nxt 10 yrs? hahaha.

2010-06-06T00:34:00.003+08:00

lol. in total, i had 6 hours of boardgames today! LOL. crazy right? haha. yes. i love boardgames. to me, as long as its strategic ones, i wld love them (: haha. LOL. thank God for all that has happened today! with all the stayover and steamboat, i am totally tired to the max liao! haha

hmm. i got to hear abt some shocking ytd. something tt actually changed the whole atmosphere in my family. yes. it seems bad in my eyes, in everybodies. But i noe everything is in His MEGA plan. there is nothing i can do now, but to pray and ask for His protection over my family. I pray that because of all these, my family can gain the precious SALVATION that comes from the precious blood of Jesus. really hope that i can be strong for my family and for Him.

2010-05-28T15:43:00.004+08:00

你们所遇见的试探，无非是人所能受的。神是信实的，必不叫你们接受试探过于所能受的。在受试探的时候，总要给你们开一条出路，叫你们能忍受得住。（林前10：13）

haha public holiday= fruitful day (: lol. really enjoyed myself so far though its only 3+pm. haha. had a great breakfast w huiling at cartel, followed by cookin soup for my lunch then potato salad for prayer meeting. it was my first time tryin to cook that soup, but it turned out great! haha. i tink i will cook it again nxt week! hahaha.

so.. at the end of all e cookin, i told my sis
" You cook using logic and experience, while I cook using imagination."
haha cos i everything imagine le den cook de. so in the end, keep pestering my sis for advices. hahaha.

anw, while at work ytd, i learnt smt that is applicable to my walk with God. we had an activity whereby the infants had to walk on plastic "planks" with patterns on the surface, raised above the ground of abt 7cm. base on my daily observation, many of them could not walk steadily on normal floor liao, what's more the plank... so, me and another tcher held on to their hands and encourage them to walk on it. because the plank was narrow and rough, it reminded me of our walk with God. Looking closely, our walk with God is never enough for others to walk with us de. because we are all like infants. we dont hv the strength to help our peers. But only God, who is the strongest can give us the strength and support us thru the rough walk. He will hold our hands like how i held the hands of the infants. He will always be with us and encourage us even if we fall. How great was that!

just like many have said, the walk with God is never smooth-sailing. because that's when we can learn and be stronger. and we being infants in His sight, will definitely have a bit of fear when we see the rough and narrow plank. But its the faith that we nid to take a step out. Amen? (:

你们这因信蒙神能力保守的人，必能得着所预备、到末世要显现的救恩。因此，你们是大有喜乐；但如今，在百般的试炼中暂时忧愁。（彼前1：5-6）

2010-05-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

AMAZING LORD, WONDERFUL GOD

(: wow! God has been really good to me.! the surprises i have been gg thru is beyond wat i can imagine. hahaha

for ytd's captain's ball match, though my team did not manage to proceed to the 2nd round. but we did hv our share of fun. Thank God for how He led 2 impt ppl in my life to join us in the event! hahaha. Thank God for their enthuness too! Praise the Lord for how Sunshine men have been doin our part to welcome them! (: and... thanks to Jie Jie and Joi for making that invitation to my friend to join us for service tdy (: i am realli surprised to see how he agreed to the invitation! to add on to the happiness that i am experiencing, my dear mentee, SERENE ONG EN HUI, is interacting with my N! (: PRAISE THE LORD FOR THE WONDERFUL WORKS!

although there were hiccups at my workplace, but i believe that God has great plans for me.! hahaha. GOOD TRAINING, GOOD EXPERIENCE!

2010-05-17T21:20:00.003+08:00

its the start of 2nd week of my work... hahaha. LOL jus as i last blogged abt hw i enjoyed work, i slept for 11hrs the nxt day! cos i was really tired. haha. but i starting to adapt to it le. hahaha. and.. i really love my Jew boy, Alon (: hahaha.

i tink this will be a good training for me to be a childcare tcher (: haha. maybe one day, i can become a trained childcare tcher... (:

2010-05-11T13:19:00.002+08:00

aww.. (: i had such a good day ytd! hahaha. love the babies, love the toddlers, love the work place sia! hahaha. wow. realli thank God for such a good job that i have been offered. haha. one of the teachers got say if i learn all the little things abt taking care of kids, i can be a mum alr! haha.

lol. i haven seen sooo many mixed blood and Caucasian kids before neh! 他们简直是太可爱了！haha. be it the 6mths to 1.5 yrs de babies, or 1.5 yrs to 3 yrs old de toddlers, 他们都一样的可爱。在他们当中，我找到了我的快乐。看着他们对我的信任，相信我不是要拐走他们的怪老师，我心里开始有了满足感。哈哈。因为他们（所有老师和学生）对我的信任，我也变得有自信了！realli hope i can take more pictures of them! hahahaha. esp the jap kids. (: haha.

of cos, i wil never forget tt it was jus the start. so, its still the honeymoon period. but i realli hope tt i can be so joyful everyday as i meet the kids. (: i wan to learn so many things! nursery rhymes, making milk, bathing the babies, changing the diapers, feeding them (: aww!!! so exciting!

过了那么久，我也学习到了，只有挫折才会让人成长。Gambette! 我要以天父给我的勇气来面对所有的问题！hallelujah!

2010-05-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

(: praise the Lord, cos my 大何丽爹is here.. FINALLY!

and most importantly, i got my job on the day i end my exams! hallelujah! know what? i will be working at a childcare! ((: thanks to help fr jasmyn jie.. haha. feeling so excited about the job. wow! i am starting in less than 12 hrs (:

perhaps many might find that i am being quite silly. choosing a job that doesnt realli relates and require my qualifications. but, i realli wan to try out if i am cut out for the childcare line. yes. i do realli love kids. love mingling with them, love to see their adorable smile, love to teach them, love to give them all my love! though i have so much that i donno (e.g. bathing them, cleaning their butts, etc) but, i don mind learning. (: haha. hope everything will turn out fine (:

anw, i realli hope that i can make full use of my hols! so many things on my list to complete. haha. i wan to bake, cook, sew, read, go picnic-s, take photos, meet my frens (maybelline, willfred shawn, yj elaine tt yn, cool gang, etc!).. wow! so much to do! (: hahaha. and.. going to hongkong and kunming (: haha praise the Lord!

2010-04-14T08:48:00.002+08:00

time:12.45am

roomie2: "hey i wan to nap until 1am"
roomie1: "hehe. me too. let's nap tgt"

BOOM.
time: 830am.

hahaha. tt's hw me n my roomie spend the last night tgt. SLEEPING. haha.

2010-04-12T00:40:00.003+08:00

THANK GOD FOR THE WONDERFUL SERIES OF CELEBRATION. :)

actually, in me, i have a v mixed feeling. haha.

though its my bday, i felt reali happy and blessed to hav so many ppl planning to meet me and celebrate my bday. esp the barage outing. something quite unexpected. haha. =) thanks friends!

thanks to all whom wished me, surprised me, gave me presents, prayed for me. yea.! i guess, my bday will get even better wahaha. though i will be older.

yes. another part of me is feeling the burden. heavy burden. after havin to read Book of Jeremiah over this 2 weeks, and hearing pastor's sermon, i am realli burdened. but how? how can i shed it off my shoulders, unless the Lord helps me to.

Lord, please forgive us. forgive us of our idolatory. forgive us for we have "as many God as the number of fortified towns.". Lord forgive us for our foolish choice. forgive us for all that we've done.

and. tdy, it saddens me to see hw people can respect the dead, but nt the living. at the end of the day, what is the most important thing? the dead or the living? dont u all know: the dead does not have any feelings, but the living one does. why cant we jus love all who are living. but to only 感叹how we miss the deads, and so nid to do so much for them. why?

Lord, i need greater love. the LOVE that is in you.

2010-04-07T22:20:00.002+08:00

"Therefore, go make disciples of all nations baptising them in the name of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Spirit and teaching them to obey what I have commanded you..."

WOW! once again, God is so amazing! (: as i chance upon my fren's msn nick, i realise that i shld speak to her. Honestly, it has been almost a yr since we last spoken in a gathering. But somehw, i felt that the Holy Spirit led me to speak to her and i did. so, i realised that she was touched by the Holy Spirit when she attended easter service last sunday. Praise the Lord. but she wasnt ready. so, i began to share with her abt the gospel :) hehe. and thank God for His Wisdom and the technology He provides. she told me tt she doesnt hv a bible and her mum might nt allow her to own one. so.... i told her to read online! :) hahahaha. i somemore say "it has alot of versions. choose the one that u like!" hahaha. i tink she quite amazed ar. haha. but i pray that my enthuness doesnt turn her off. haha. but realli hope tt one day she can see the Light, the Truth and the Way of her Life. (: so exciting! 原来我留在学校还是有神自己的美意的！哈利路亚！ (:

2010-04-06T13:19:00.003+08:00

HELLO MY GIDDY FREN. =) are you readin my blog now? :) haha.

Good Friday is over. and tada! manage to go and catch a movie with this fren of mine. =) hehe. realli thank God so much for huihoon and mingxiu. i guess, without them, i will surely feel like quitting uni! thank God for how He led me these months. =) exams are coming and i realli got to start preparing. but thre are so many meet ups =( hai.

and! i tink i realli starting to love photography. =( saw so many cameras recently. holga, lumo, canon G11! argh. feel like having them. BUT i got no money.. =( hai.

but anw, "The Lovely Bones" is a realli scary, heart-thrilling movie! LOL. nv watched any movie until i feel so traumatised!. its nt even a horror show luh! and i held on to HH's hand like donno wat! LOL. but the story is realli good. hmm makes me think abt death issues again. though the place that i might be at is gg to be awesome, but wat if i have things unaccomplished?

2010-04-01T23:22:00.001+08:00

¹⁷ "Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you. Do not be terrified by them, or I will terrify you before them. ¹⁸ Today I have made you a fortified city, an iron pillar and a bronze wall to stand against the whole land—against the kings of Judah, its officials, its priests and the people of the land. ¹⁹ They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD. (Jeremiah 1: 17-19)

2010-03-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

sunmei & xueying: yea. THANKS FOR ALL YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT! thanks for helpin me to tide thru this difficult time of mine=)

jinhao: thanks.

yujie: YES! i am excited. I cant wait.! May the Holy Spirit work in the most wonderful way on friday!

2010-03-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

In Christ alone, my hope is found.
He is my light, my strength, my song...

heard this song in my ipod tdy. and set me thinking, "how long more will i stand alone?"
deep inside me, i know the answer is "NOT LONG!". amen? =)

i am so excited. cant wait for a day where my family will worship with me in church, serve with me in our Father's Kingdom. =)

when else can your mum's Father be yours too? Only when all are in CHRIST.

so in Christ we who are many will form one body,

and each member belong to all the others. (Romans 12:5)

2010-03-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

你在上天堂之前会有什么感觉？

thank God for the wonderful play that we are having on 2nd april. thank God for His Providence. Thank God for the Director, for the scriptwriters, for the crew and cast. thank God for all the wonderful fellowship we had all these while as we rehearse. And yes. thank God for all who will be coming! =)

yes. as i was talking to my mum the other day. (and trying to evangelise to her =P)... i said something like this:

"If i would to die tomorrow, my only sadness is that you all haven believe. and my only fear is that you all cant be with me in heaven. *tears roll down*"

yes that's the answer i gave my mum. though Jesus did say before "Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead." but how can i be so heartless? however, i do believe. God loves me and my family. and cos i have believed in Him, my family will also receive Him. i believe the day is near!可以说阿们吗？

HALLELUJAH!. PTL! :)

2010-03-25T01:36:00.002+08:00

yes. i feel weak now. cos too much are happening. but i am sure God can pick me up.! cos i cannot let myself be weak for even a sec! be strong QQ! =) everything will be better tmr! dont worry!. =)

2010-03-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

the best way out, may not be of the best help.

yea. something which i learn today. hw i wish i can dont noe so much. how i wish we are that close to the extend that we can share everything. i really don wan to see u get hurt. but i donno hw to help. i really hope one day u can see hw much i care for you. i'll keep you in my prayer, sister.

2010-03-24T20:14:00.003+08:00

要常常喜乐！

though i cant seem to be joyful now... but i will try!

2010-03-21T01:23:00.002+08:00

我觉得，
那疲惫的感觉似乎已经开始侵入了我的生命。哦！好累哦！

但是，回想起，耶稣为我们十字架不是更累吗？

"Dear Lord, I pray that you would take the tiredness away from me. Make me strong, make me whole.. Let my mouth not say a word of complaint. But always praising You. Lord. let me find rest in you. let my strength be renewed and make me strong once again! Take away all my desires. And let my life be of praise and meaning for you! hallelujah. All these I pray in Jesus' name."

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 )

2010-03-14T01:52:00.002+08:00

thank God for the day. I believe, His Words are now in me. My life, My guidance, My strength for me to carry on. Hallelujah!

2010-03-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

i put You infront of me, so everyone can see, the true Love

2010-03-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

OH! 我的何丽爹又要走了！ :( HAI. ITS THURS ALR. SO SIAN! BUT STILL, THANK GOD FOR THE FRUITFUL WEEK I HAVE:) HAVING TO SPEND QUALITY TIME(AND MONEY) WITH MY SISTER, ATTENDING PRAYER MTG, HAVIN SUPPER AT CAFE CARTEL, JOINING THE PRINCESSES FOR PRAYERS :) WHAT'S MORE CAN I ASK FOR'? HAHA. THANK GOD FOR E AWESOME WEEK! HEHE. CANT WAIT FOR ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS AND EXAMS TO END IN MAY. AND MY BIG BIG HE-LI-DIE WILL COME! :)

2010-02-24T22:58:00.004+08:00

我因你的圣名而喜乐，
我因你的慈爱而跳跃，
我因你的恩典而感谢，
我因你的作为而兴奋！

wow! many things are coming on the way.
but i am feeling excited!
May the Lord answers all my prayers according to His wills and plans for me.

2010-02-15T21:30:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEPHEW WITH HIS FAV AH PEK!

TALKATIVE BABY JOSH!

PROTECTING HIS BROTHER!

WOW!HE KNOWS HOW TO BAI NIAN EVEN WHEN HE'S JUST 2 MTHS OLD!

haha. yea. these were the photos taken on the DA NIAN CHU YI. haha. really enjoyed carrying baby josh and playing with toddler jake. haha. really wonder what will they become in 10 yrs. haha. as mischievious? or talkative? haha. LOL.

hai. playing with Jake reminds me of my dream to be a childcare tcher. :( when i see how he tried to learn to do things on his own, and make requests, and eat those food on his own, how i wish i could hav a bunch of students at his age. :( to play with them and to teach them. it really ponders me when can i hav that dream fulfilled. :(

but i noe, for the time being, its either i continue to waste off my new year... or i start to study! haha. LOL. the 6th week is here. this equates to nearly 50% of the exam syllabus are being taught alr. LOL. but i am looking forward to the outing this sat! :) yipee! :)

2010-02-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS! :)

lol. ironically, though its new yr now, i don feel the new yr mood! haha. i guess i am tired. cos new yr= cleaning up! esp i got piles of things on my table 24 hours ago. haha. and thank God. i managed to 将所有的大山都挪移了！hahaha.

thank God for the wonderful dinner my father and sister prepared. haha. i got so tired tt i took a super long nap. :x haha. BUT i did the clean ups :) hehe..

anw. ROXANNE TAN LUO SHAN! i miss u! :) haha. hope u come back soon! :))

haha. i was browsing my frens blog jus now. and i do agree with weitheng tt though the yr jus started merely 6 weeks ago, BUT it has been realli eventful.. May the Lord continue to guide us all in all the things we do. and, SNG we can always find time to chat. no worries :)

2010-02-10T00:39:00.003+08:00

wow today's prayer meeting was great. :) Love the sermon given by Pastor Kong(thru a recording). it makes me ponder. thank God!

我的梦想是什么呢？起初，我的梦想是能够开设自己的幼儿园。一个可以传福音，教导孩子们那真理的幼儿园。一个可以使很多没有能力用头学前教育的孩子有学习机会的幼儿园。即使也许会是亏本生意，但是我知道，能够祝福更多的人，一切会是值得的。因为我相信神会给予我很大的智慧来治理这所幼儿园。为着这个梦想，我便开始努力奋斗。努力的读书。

可是，在今天，我开始回想，这个梦想是否是真的合乎神的心意呢？就像Pastor Kong所说的，空虚的梦想是一个恶梦。没有神的旨意的事，做了也是徒然的。我真的不希望到头来，当我年老的时候才发现我所一直在追逐的梦想是空虚，徒然的。

愿我如今所在做的每一件事都是神所喜悦的。愿我的每一个梦想都会是神的梦想。Thank You Jesus! :)

and, God has been so amazing. 我昨天才正读到一段经文

“耶和华啊，求你将你的道路指示我，将你的路教训我。求你以你的真理引导我，教训我，因为你是救我的神，我终日等候你。”（诗25：4-5）

虽然我没有“终日”等候神，但是我希望有一天我能够如此行。如此的亲近我的天父。:)

“人生的理想，是为主来发光。。。”

2010-02-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

thank God for the wonderful day i had today. haha. had lots of fun playing games with my students for sunday school today. LOL. the results of making them memorise the verse Hebrew 11:8 was that, i also can bei them out alr! haha. a good way to know more of His Words and making Them stay in my heart. haha. and and... plus the nice, touching, tear-inducing movie with HUILING!. LOL. (we happened to realise that we always watch such shows tgt. hahaha). and HACHIKO is a realli nice movie to catch!

yea. and thru the movie, i started to ponder over certain issue. can we human be as loyal to our master as the dog did? i was realli awed by the faithfulness of the dog towards the master, Prof Parker. though he died one fine day, but the dog continued to wait upon its master's return at the station for the following 10yrs. because it held on to the faith that its master wld return to bring it with him. and because of this, a verse came into my mind,

"主人说：好，你这又良善又忠心的仆人，你在不多的事上有忠心，我要把许多事派你管理；可以进来享受你主人的快乐。(馬太福音 25:23)"

i guess this has always been the wish for many of us, to be called the faithful and wise servant of God. i thank God for the movie. because i learnt that i should be like Hachi. learning to wait for my Lord at all times. waiting for Him to bring me to the place He has always been. yea. i also learnt that if Hachi can wait for its master for 10 yrs, why cant i wait for my Lord to answer my prayers.? Hallelujah! Praise the Lord.!

giving yr most precious

2010-02-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

yea. Jus came back fr my babysitter's hse. Haha. 16 yrs liao and im still visiting her! Lol. And its then when i found out tt the neighbour's son wasnt their qin sheng de.. Tt' when my parents concluded tt the 'parents' therefore cldnt giv him all the love tt he needed. Because he is nt their own son!

Den i asked,'who are his parents?' my mum say tt his real parents are actually his uncle and aunty... Oh my! I cant imagine this actually. If tis child is my own son, how cn i bear to give him to someone else?! I tink wo yin gai mei you na me wei da ba! Hai.:(
come to think of it, God is really awesome! Ta guo ran hen wei da! Guo ran shi GOD! We seem to be so not related to him. But, no matter we know Him or not, He still die for our sins! He gave His precious son to us!

Thank you Jesus.=)

2010-02-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

i love my new blogskin! =) hehe. LOL

anw, it has been a tiring week where i got to chiong my work for 3 consecutive nights. i tink i haven been such hardworking since my A levels.

AND! red blue does not give me wings. but HEADACHE! i guess, i realli cant take caffeine. =( how?! how to keep myself awake like tt?! =(

oh! and God has been really GOOD! He heard my prayer and made things happen! Thank you Jesus! =) I really want to see wat's next in line for me! hehe.

因为有你，生命变得美丽。

2010-01-28T20:42:00.002+08:00

相信上帝是个人的事吗？

my answer: can be a yes and no :)

2010-01-25T20:15:00.003+08:00

全然为你
我将生命交在你手中
献上一切给你主
我的世界全在你手里
我属于你到永远

(Chorus)
耶稣我心相信你
耶稣我心属于你
活着全都为了你
歌唱也为了你
全然为你

与你同行到天涯海角
不论悲喜我信靠你
主我愿意活出你旨意
活出你应许到永远

主我敬拜主我敬拜你

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这就是我现在心里的感触。I just suddenly have this deep feeling that I really really want to live for Him. and this is wat i really want to do at the moment. 既然我已经经历到人的话语的能力，I proclaim that my studies shall be the thing that glorifies Him. i will no longer be weak, but now I am strong! cos my heart truly believe in the one who will make all things new and strengthen all who are weak!. :) 6 more days! =)

2010-01-25T00:27:00.002+08:00

6 more days! =) yea!

i realli cant wait for that day to arrive. cant wait to be new again. cant wait for everything to happen.

to me, its realli an important day. so important that i hope all my close friends can come. though it wld be even better if my family can be ard with me. but i guess, i cant ask for the stars when i hv the moon alr? but really thank God for His perfect timing in this. Thank God for the change in me. for all the great works He've done in me.

yea. tere's realli this one crucial person that i hope can be there. she's the one being there for me when i was jus a spiritual baby. standing by me when i teared at my first visit to church. teaching me how to take my spiritual food. ensure that i am nourished. showing me what God has shown her. I guess, if not for her love and guidance, i cant be who i am today. thank God for such an awesome sister He has placed in my life. thank you Jesus. thank you wenbing jie.

2010-01-20T21:18:00.004+08:00

thank God for my wonderful family and beloved friends =)

yea. hv been pondering over lots of things this 2 weeks. 有些已有了结论，but some are still hanging. really hope things will just get better.

but anw, i am so lookin forward to the weekends! being able to catch up with all my batchmates and gg for supper with them @ 85! =) and and, the most exciting is next weekend! thank God for hearing my prayers and i must say, "我们的话语是由能力的！" as i proclaim in faith, everything has been done! thank you Jesus! cant wait for next sunday to arrive!hehe.

anw, "i Kissed Dating Goodbye" is a good book. everyone shld read it =)

2010-01-07T18:18:00.001+08:00

aww. i tink i got to wait another 2 months to enjoy dinner at home again =(

perhaps, nt staying in hostel cld be a good thing afterall ...

2010-01-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

school is starting = holiday is ending! *NOOOOO* haha.

thank God for this wonderful holiday that i can do so much as a service to Him. If there is no hols, i don tink i can be able to complete youth camp stuff, dance or even to meet up with so many fabulous people. haha. BUT tis one month holiday is definitely not enough for me to meet the others! hai. so sorry to my COOL GANG and my SEC SKL CLIQUE! =( sorry for my busy schedule.

but anw, i am so determined to complete all the goals and resoultions that i have set for this year! haha =)) i am not going to let myself hv any chance of falling! :) I am also determined to do well in my studies in the coming year! =) haha. GLORIFY HIS NAME!

In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. (Matthew 5:16)

2009-12-31T01:40:00.003+08:00

wells. the year is coming to an end in less than 12 hrs :)

haha. thank God for all that has happened in my life for this whole year! =)
hmm. i guess, i shld make it a point to list all my thanksgiving on my post each yr! (jus in case i don get to meet some ppl and thank them personally :))

1) for my family: being understanding despite my heavy commitments. for allowing me to serve God with my heart :)
2) for YUJIE: encouraging me, bringing me to Christ since 4 yrs ago. helping me to grow spiritually!
3) for my uni friends (Huihoon and MX): encouraging me when i feel tt i am the lousiest.
4) for YEMULAN: for being with me at all the crucial points in my life and decision making process. thanks to my wonderful JIA ZHANG who took care of me and helped me to grow =)
5) for ELAINE: studying with me and hearing all my crappy stories =) hehe.
6) for DANCE TEAM: teaching me all that i need to know about serving. (though i still donno all). thanks for the understanding and patience towards my slow pace of learning. thanks for giving me chances to dance for the Lord. =)
7) for SYFC: giving me the know-hows to evagelism and helping me to grow spiritually to be a stronger QIQIN=)
8) for Pastor, Cuixian Jie and Hui Hui Jie: being patient with me, teaching me, guiding me and forgiving me of the blunders i've made
9) for CAUTION CAMP COMMITTEE: thanks for the understanding, concerns, trust and forgiveness shown to me. realli thank God for the team =)
10) for WEITHENG: thanks brother for everything! =)

i guess, many things hve changed over this one whole yr. Thank God for all the wonderful changes and friendships made and the improved relationships. thank God for making my life so colourful over the past 8mths of break plus 3 months of study and 1 month of hols. Thank God for this fruitful year. Thank God for changing me, planting the love in me. Thank God for the
wonderful year!

i am sooooo looking forward to 12 hours later!! =)

2009-12-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING.!

YOUTH CAMP 2009 HAS OFFICIALLY COME TO AN END.
hahaha. really thank God for His leading, guidance, shelter and providence in every way.
thank all campers for their participation. many thanks to my team for all ur forgiveness to my blunders and mistakes along the way. thank all whom helped us by providing materials and resources and help to make the whole camp possible. ESPECIALLY PASTOR=)

i really learnt alot from this camp. and though many things cld be better, but i still wanna thank God for working in this camp. I BELIEVE ALL OF US WHO ATTENDED ARE DIFFERENT NOW! amen? =) AND WE WILL CONTINUE TO BE DIFFERENT COS WE HV THAT FIRE IN US!

PRAISE THE LORD!

2009-12-01T01:48:00.002+08:00

alrites! the exam is OVERRRRRR.!

and i jus watched My Sister's Keeper. hmm. thank God that i din watch it at the theatres. or else.. 后果不堪设想！never did i use so much tissue while watching a show before! haha. i started crying even before the show reach 25% i tink. haha. bad bad.

but after watching the show, i tink its time for a good reflection!

意识形态ideology? 隐喻metaphor? 艺术手法? hahaha. HC101 is seeping into every corner of my LIFE! hahaha.

2009-11-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

hahaha. JOKE OF THE DAY!

有一天，有只公鹿越跑越快，

跑到最後，它就变成高速公鹿

（哈哈哈哈）

2009-11-21T23:39:00.001+08:00

hehehe. my new love! :)

jus came back from uncle's wedding. :) and met this LOVELY LITTLE COUSIN OF MINE :)

hehe. he's cute rite? haha

got to go back to study! 8 more days to go!

2009-11-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

its going to be over in 11 days! yea!

2009-11-06T18:57:00.003+08:00

standing on bed studying.
mopping the floor out of the blue
finding food to eat
taking photo at the door step :)

this is what happens at 2am on 6th Nov 2009!
haha.i guess everyone us getting stressed up :)
hahah.

2009-11-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

feeling tired. but i am sure that things will get better :)

haha. 希望十二月可以快快来！因为十二月是“好消息” 的月份！没有考试，没有压力！ yipee! hahah
realli hope this year got hao xiao xi! :D
:)

2009-10-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

LOL! my feelings for today is so MIXED UP!

firstly, its my last tuition lesson with elena alr. hai. 想当初, straightaway aft i told huihui jie tt i gg to give tuiton(and one day before i fly to taiwan),alicia contacted me. to ask me give tuition to her sis. WOW! tt was such a God given chance. haha. so, i started to coach her in her math fr dec till today. though i charge her quite cheaply, but its the quality time spent with her tt i enjoyed. and fr her failed emath, i taught her until she got 19/20(for a test) and then, saw her fail her emath again in prelims. haha. ironic. but i believe, with her hardwork put in, she will definitely be rewarded *big smiles* haha. hmm. so i actually felt nostalgic while i was with her for tt 2.5 hrs.

secondly, one of my best friends(o.O weird expression. haha) is attached! jus today! haha. the funny thing was tt even before she told me abt her issues, I CAUGHT THEM TGT LIAO! and its near my flat tt area. haha. lol. it made me giggle non-stop while coming back home. haha. felt really happy for them :) haha. tt's wat friends are for right? haha. feeling happy for one another and cheering each other on :D haha. i am so glad tt i have so many 1st degree close friends :D (lol. which means... my secrets are open! lol) haha. (tt's why u don see tt i got any secrets)hahahha. so interesting!!!! hah

hmm. anw. i tink God has been realli good to me :D haha. though i am not sure if i am realli staying with him in a v v close relationship, but at least i dare to say tt many of my thoughts are inline with wat i feel is fr Him :D never felt this kind of piece before! haha. the joy tt is in my heart tt makes me feel happy each day. :D haha. the JOY and PEACE that allows me to be confidently facing my studies. haha. YEA!

NOW:"exams are near yet i dont fear".
2 YEARS AGO: "exams are near, increasingly are my fearS" hahah.

THANK YOU, DADDY! :)

haha. and i am realli sure of what are the things tt i wanna focus this few years :)

2009-10-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

haha. it has been so long ever since i had a GOOD dinner with my cousins :) lol. quality time spent together. haha.

anw. the exam mood is on now.! everyone busy studying liao. haha. and i jus started mine this week. :D finally completed chapt 4 of MB106. haha. makes me wonder if i shld take minor in business. :( hai.

haha. i guess cos everyone very stressed up, me and my cousins could crap loads tgt. haha. giving names to each other like 小陈，大陈，单黄（月饼？），小汤，大汤，小树，大树？haha. lol. super crappy. haha. and the air stewardess talk. haha.

yea. got to go back and study le :) felt so motivated today! :))

2009-10-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

haha. but one thing good about stayin in hall..

i get to watch TEAR INDUCING movies with my ROOMIES (LEGAL, ILLEGAL, ACTUAL).
i can tease them.
we can play catching along corridor
we can play hide-and-seek
we can sleep late tgt
we can HTHT. :)

i am sooo going to enjoy my first year with them :)

jia you all my biaos in our coming exam! :D

2009-10-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

HALL LIFE ? what exactly is it?! (disclaimer: i am not trying to be scarcastic or not appreciating what i have) hmm. i jus feel that i don suit the life here. 我和这里的人真是格格不入。我若不是在自己的房间，其实我也没什么地方可以去了。hmm. and after travelling so much on my own this 2 weeks, i learnt tt i can actually read on the train. basically, i have SEVERE MOTION SICKNESS. ANY READING DONE ON MOVING TRANSPORT WILL CAUSE ME TO FEEL NAUSEOUS OR SICK. hmm. i guess, God has been blessing me ba. hahaha. with this new gift, i could actually read the bible or any book if i don wan to sleep. isnt it more fruitful? hehe. yea. tt shall be my option next yr. NOT TO STAY IN HOSTEL BUT TO TRAVEL.

haha. anw, realli thank God for leading me thus far. Hope tt i can find my vision soon. a vision tt realli coming fr God to lead me in my life. apparently, i do not know if the one tt i hav currently is mine or His. :( yea. though i do not know, but i still feel blessed. :D hehe. back to studies liao! May God bless all of u :)

2009-10-08T00:13:00.002+08:00

只有真正活在实际里的人才会选择要侍奉神的国度。你说是吗？

yea. went for the special service tonite. was realli motivated by wat Pastor said. Simple yet, difficult to do. But i am willing to try. I do not want to waste my time and effort jus by doing things that are perishable. things that are useless and worthless in His sight. Yea. so I pray, pray that i am able to know clearly of what plans He has for me. And how to fulfil all. I wan to serve. Not on the basis of serving, BUT cos I love Him. tt's why i am willing to be used.

Lord, help me to stay focus. Help me to know that what to do at what time. May my service to You be pleasing to your sight. :)

2009-09-30T23:18:00.003+08:00

ahhh..

i saw this advertisement about a new movie! and i wanted to watch it! :(

its... APRIL BRIDE.
hai. though i noe tt i will for sure cry until v jia lat, but i realli wan to watch it. i tink it will be motivating and v v touching leh :( hai. but... donno when and who to watch with! hai. maybe i shld save money and wait for the vcd to be out? hai.

2009-09-28T16:28:00.007+08:00

who wants to be be my shareholder in 8 yrs?

waha i got distracted off my studies AGAIN! haha. i realli realli wan to have my own childcare. it seems far and difficult to achieve. but i realli wan it.

i realli wan kids to experience Him at young age. i wan to plant His Words into their life. cos i noe the Seed will grow in them. and they will be different. i am sure they are going to receive the best education cos there is no other better materials and guidebook other than the Truth.

yes.! tt is my plan. my goal. my motivation. tt is wat i wan to achieve!

and maybe, this is the onli thing tt can push me on for all that i am going thru now. :)

2009-09-25T22:38:00.001+08:00

ITS RECESS WEEK! :)

but, i still hv lots of things to complete. haha. ASSIGNMENTS and READINGS. haha. but i am learning to cope everything now. :)

however, i am always falling sick! haha. really hope i can stop falling sick for at least a month! haha.but its ok.. cos.....

ITS RECESS WEEK! WOOHOO~

LIZARD ATTACK

2009-09-17T20:17:00.002+08:00

LIZARD ATTACK!

you can never imagine the number of lizards being bred in NTU de lor. hahaha. jus on a side of the wall, i can see 8 lizards!! see properly, its EIGHT! wah. super grossed out. haha.

anw, its so nice to have lunch and dinner w friends and familly. haha. buying jus 2 sets and sharing it w another 2 ppl is so BUDGET! haha. lol. guess i need to learn more abt saving money. haha. cos staying here is v costly. everythin u pay on ur own until u donno where e money go. haha. BUT. because i stay in hall, i realise how much i miss my mum's cooking :( haha. never in my life did i crave for my mum's cooking. or rather, i used to complain abt how bad she cook and how bored i am. but now, i realli realli crave for tt :( hai. so...

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO RECESS WEEK! :) haha.

2009-09-07T14:09:00.001+08:00

hmms. feeling confused rite now. i guess, my headache is realli owing to all the things tt is gg on in my head. non-stop ones. hai. :( Lord, please take those thots away if they are harmful to me :(

2009-08-13T18:21:00.003+08:00

living in hostel doesnt seem that bad afterall...

haha. cos

1) i learn to be independent

2) learn to do housework (e.g. wash my own clothes)

3) staying up late with cousin(s) and do lame stuff

4) saving time on travelling.

apparently, when all my frens in the East start to make their way to school, i am still in my bed! haha.

5) i can spend time with my cousins :)

haha. anw, lecture today is bad. cant understand a single thing. jia lat liao. being not a chinese lit student is gg to hai si wo le. cos i cant understand the literature stuff! hai...

God's child

"主 人 说 ： 好 ， 你 这 又 良 善 又 忠 心 的 仆 人 ， 你 在 不 多 的 事 上 有 忠 心 ， 我 要 把 许 多 事 派 你 管 理 ； 可 以 进 来 享 受 你 主 人 的 快 乐 。(馬 太 福 音 25:23)"

giving yr most precious

有一天，有只公鹿越跑越快，

跑到最後，它就变成高速公鹿

LIZARD ATTACK

"主人说：好，你这又良善又忠心的仆人，你在不多的事上有忠心，我要把许多事派你管理；可以进来享受你主人的快乐。(馬太福音 25:23)"