我真的很努力了。但是，我还是不可以。不可以考得像样一点。虽然我知道成绩不是最重要的。但是，还是很沮丧。I guess, this is the sem that i have ever studied so hard. this is the only sem that I have ever tried to push away certain things to make time out for studies. this is the only sem that I would prepare early. But why? ): 我不能说我已经对成绩麻木了，否则我也不会那么难过。

I guess, now, its again going back to my Father. Depending on Him for strength and wisdom. because I am TOTALLY incapable. I really hope all these will end soon. So that I can pursue what I really like. Get to see my babies and little children everyday. ):