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Monday, July 09, 2007 ( @ 6:36 PM ) i realli donno. i donno God put me in JC is cos i wan it so He give me, or is it tat He realli wan me to go JC.. i realli donno..:( how? i feel so confused now.. wat if God realli wan me to go poly but cos i like JC den He let me try one leh?? i v v scared its like tat. when ever i tink of this, i start to cry again. i donno why. JC life is realli hard. so hard that i almost cannot take it.. i like studying. bt not exams. not tests. cos whenever i realli put in my effort, it nv pays off. maybe God wan me to learn from it. but its v v hard. i don wan to fail anymore. its so devastating. cos it make me wonder if i am realli stupid. why ppl don do tutorial, don do revision de all can do so well. but not me leh?? i am jus so stupid. hai. i am not refering to anyone abt that. but after all these yrs of hardwork, that's wat i see. :( oh no. i noe i am not having faith in God now. but i realli donno how but to feel like that. I am sorry. in the end, i still focus on results, the end results rather den the God that love me. i am realli sorry. ohno. i realli cant control my emotinos anymore..... 0 comments |