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Friday, December 15, 2006

( @ 11:26 AM )

oh no. i now feel like crying again.. jus read ah rui jie jie's blog. i regretted. regretted of having so many events. if not for all these, i can pei ah gong more le. i realli miss him.. realli. he's so nice, so great. why? why cant he live longer? longer to see me get my results, longer to see my cousin graduate, my cousins to get married. i always had a wish, wish for my grandparents to see me start my own family. that's cool u noe? getting married with ur grandparents in presence. but now i onli left with my ah ma.. hai.. i hav no more grandfather le.. both left me... why? why cant my wish come true?

to add on to my previous post. ah gong was actually hospitalised on sat (2 dec) cos his blood pressure too low. but he chao zhe yao hui jia on wed (6 dec)... acc to ah rui jie jie's prediction, he jus felt not right abt his condition. so he wanted to be discharged. so we hired private nurses to take care of him. one from 8am to 8 pm, another form 8pm to 8am.. when he was home, he was put on oxygen tank. this jus shows tat his condition wasnt good either. even when he's home, he still felt tat he's still in hospital. he kept on saying " wa ai deng chu."(i wan to go home). it was until shu shu brought momo(my cousins' dog) to let ah gong touch (in fact he poked momo), den ah gong accepted the fact tat he's home alr. and mama say tat san shen ask ah gong if he's worrying bout anything. and if he is, he shldnt be. cos we will all take care of ah ma.. and i believe, its cos of like tat, and my prayers, ah gong left us the next day morning.. i noe ah ma is sad. realli. cos she couldnt slp well. and when shu shu they all want bring ah ma to watch ah mei's match, she didnt want to. i guess she jus wan to keep ah gong in company. (cos ah gong's ling wei was put at hm). and she kept on worrying abt the burning out of incense. haha. tat's the funny part. she say " if i go out, den hu will light a new incense?" haha. den san shen cant stand her. haha. ah ma always tink of all these funny stuff one lor. jus like wat papa say, she worry for the wrong things. haha.and becos ah ma always lag at thinking of things, she will always get scolded. haha. den papa use ah gong's phrase to scold ah ma. "li mai cha la. cha ga wa tao gong ar!"( don come bother me, u are just making me headache) haha. this was said when my ah gong was at home after his first discharge. he said it becos ah ma kept on asking him bout his condition. haha.

hmmm. i am now left with all the memories with ah gong. i will nv forget how he brought me to cycle. and how he always asked me to got piang piang my ear (pierce my ear) when i was young, eating tgt at a table every sunday, bringing him to my house for dinner on some wednesdays, helping out at ah ma's factory w ah gong, packing noodles, sealing them.. all these are jus so many things i do with ah gong. oh. i jus miss him so much. i wan my ah gong back.. i noe its not possible. its jus a stupid wish......

but i must say, it was thru this, my whole family became close once again. nv in so many years we went out tgt to shop. my gu gu n san shen n my mama. its been 10 years since we three family shopped tgt... haha. we went to hang ten to buy clothes tgt. cos we needed dull colour clothes, haha. and we bought many! haha. den we oso went to redeem our curry puffs.. haha. we redeemed 15! with 30 coupons. haha. scary rite? haha.and becos we cant guo nian, we hav decided to hav a chalet at aloha loyang from chinese new year eve to the 3rd day.. haha. the adults will play majong and so will all of us.. waha..so cool... and we children will prepare the food for bbq.. hehe... cool rite? i jus cant wait to go for this chalet man... haha...

ah gong is gone for a week le. and i am in MJ now. and today is VJ not so silent nite concert........



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